Updates......

Where to start....Sorry if this gets a little confusing. I have so many different thoughts rolling around in my head lately. I will try to make this into more of a post and not have it be so random!

It's CD11, we haven't started taking the Fer.til.aid yet, and I'm starting to second guess whether or not we should. My RE has told me before that he thught it was a waste of money. Now I know what your thinking(I had the same thought myself), "I didn't waste any money, since I won it!" But still, I don't know if we will actually use it. If we don't wind up taking it, I will let ya know and send it to one of you ladies, if you are interested.

I'm going shopping with my mom today! Haven't been shopping in a while, that ought to be fun!! Plus, mom normally takes me to lunch too, so bonus!!!

Work, shmurk, I still haven't found a job, but surprisingly enough, we are making it ok. Not really sure how that is working, but hey, I can't complain. One thing we did do was consolidate all our credit cards, and Wow, what a difference! We had been paying $500/month on credit cards, and now our consolidated payment is under $200!!! That has helped out tremendously.

I talked to my RE the other day and apologized for not making it to the seminar the other night. I forgot how good I feel after talking to him. He has such a great sense of humor, but is still sensitive about the situation and oh so very sincere. I told him I feel like we are at a stand still...He asked if wanted to make an appt and kind of "re-group"? I of course said, yes, but told him we cannot do anything until we have paid off the last one. I also reminded him that we had to take out a personal loan for our IVF and stressed again, how we CANNOT take out another loan until that is paid. He said he knows and then tells me to call the office and make an appt to come in and talk to him and he will do what he can. I asked J what he thought about it, and we agreed that he doesn't seem to be only trying to get a co-pay out of us or waste our time, but rather it seems as though he truly cares and wants to help....So I will be calling this week to get an appointment. I don't know what all of this means, but I'm very interested in finding out!

We went to church yesterday. There was a guest speaker and he said something that just kinda stuck so I thought I would share it with all of you! "It is harder to let go of something when you think it is yours, than it is when you think it is someone else's."

Ok! That's all I got for now.....Hope everyone has a great week!!