~quick post~

I'm done, I'm done!!!! I'm really, really done!!!!!! Technically, I have another class tomorrow morning, but it is just for us newbies to schedule some hours. I "think" it's starting in the week of October 10th..... We shall see. Or rather I will see tomorrow! Such a massive relief to have that class behind me. there were several days when I thought I couldn't hack it or my teacher was going to give me the boot.....But, I prevailed and succeded!!!!

In the words of my instructor......YYYEEEEEEEEEEEE HHHHAAAAAWWWWWWW DDDAAAAWWWWWWGGGGGIIIIIIEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hellllooooo and welcome to movie phone!

Gotta prepare myself for customer service cause in four days I'll be officially done with class!!! Can I get a whoop-whoop?!?! :() I'm so ready to get to what I will be doing. Sure, I'm still stressed out. But not as bad as I was last week. And, I think a lot of what I am feeling will ease away once I get in there and start working it everyday. {Or at least I hope so!} I just hate not knowing what to expect, ya know? I'm required to work a minimum of 20 hours/week and that is ALL I plan on doing until I am completely comfortable. No way I'm gonna take on more than the minimum and overload myself. Uh-uh, not me!!!

I realize my 30 posts in 30 days have gone by the way side. Sorry about that. I had full intention of keeping up with it, but that just didn't happen. I'm too darn busy. Even my weekends are full with me running around like a chicken with my head chopped off. I'm so ready for a less hectic schedule!

Even now, I'm laying in bed typing this from my phone while I should be sleeping. But, I have so many things running through my mind....I wanted to touch base{if, I even have any readers left} and let you know I am still here. I try to read some of your posts before class, just don't have time to comment on everyone's. Next week I won't have homework in the evenings so hopefully I can start frequenting the blogosphere more often!!

Well, I'm getting sleepy now. So good night!

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My stomach's in knots

I am completely stressed out over my upcoming certification test for my new job. Apparently, they test us with 'live calls' and I am fReAkInG oUt. I am so afraid I will space out in the middle of the phone call and only be able to utter, uh, uh, um, uh..... I think you get the point. I was a nervous wreck all through class yesterday and more so each day as it gets closer and closer. Everytime I think about it my palms start sweating{this has never happened to me before} and I have this tightness in my chest. Last night after class, after homework, I was a complete and utter mess. I started baking to try and calm my nerves, we now have banana bread, cake{from scratch}, and if I think about it much longer, I'll be in there making cookies.....My kitchen looks like a bomb went off in it, total chaos. This madness has got to end! I'm sure it will be okay and in the end I'll wonder why I stressed so much to begin with. BUT, I'm not at the end yet{one more week} and the fear of the unknown is going to exhaust me.

~in through the nose~

~out through the mouth~


~in through the nose~

~out through the mouth~


~in through the nose~

~out through the mouth~

Nope, didn't work. Still stressed out! Off to the kitchen I go for more baking....

Seeing 3dp5dt only makes me want to be back there again

That abbreviation was a recent title on Robin's blog.......Yep, I remember that abbreviation! And seeing it only makes me wish I was right back in IVF land! Even with all the hot flashes, mood swings and shots. It still felt as though we were "doing" something toward getting PG. I know we are saving up for IVF and so we technically are doing something, but it's not the same. I want to do IVF again NOW. It's been over two years since we tried and it's becoming more and more like a distant memory of something I may have done once or maybe I dreamed up the whole thing. I hate waiting, and yet, that is all I ever seem to do anymore. Wait for more money, wait for a job, wait to be PG. I'm done waiting. But wait{no pun intended}, I cannot move forward until I have more money for said IVF, so wait is all I can do. The story of my life. *sigh*

We have received $1200 in donations for our IVF blog and are so extremely thankful to all who have given to us!! I hope the amount continues to multiply! Hopefully, I can start working soon and add to it on a regular basis. I have come to the realization that we will not be able to do IVF this year{like I was hoping for}. My RE got the pharmacy to donate the Foll.ist.im for me{to help cut costs}. However, the meds expire in January. His nurse told me to let them know if I wasn't going to use them so they could give it to someone else. Since an IVF C takes roughly two months to complete and I only have $1200 I'm guessing I need to call my RE in the next couple of weeks and hand over my meds. I'm happy to help someone else in need, but I can't help but think, "there goes my chance for my baby(ies)." It had become apparent a few months ago that we wouldn't be able to afford to do it, but I was still holding on to that glimmer of hope.

30 posts in 30 days: day 22-24

day 22 - a website
everyone IRL wants to know about my new work-from-home endeavour, so here ya go, in case you were interested as well. {It seems this is the only site I'm ever on anymore. Sorry I couldn't be more creative.}

day 23 - a you.tube video

day 24 - where I live
in TEXAS!!! Born and raised, except for those 13 years I lived in South Africa ;)

30 posts in 30 days: day 21

day 21 - a recipe

~Sour Cream Cookies~
I know that title doesn't scream delishousness, but they are so good!! I really don't know if that is the actual name for them, but it's what I call them. Yum-O!!
1 cup Shortening{part butter or marg}
2 cups Sugar
2 Eggs
2 tsp Vanilla
5 1/3 cups Flour
2 tsp Baking Powder
1 tsp Baking Soda
1 tsp Salt
1/2 tsp Nutmeg
1 cup Sour Cream

Preheat oven to 425 degrees. Mix together first four ingredients. In seperate bowl, mix dry ingrediants, blend thoroughly. Add to sugar mixture alternating with sour cream. Divide dough in half. Roll out to 1/4" thick on well-floured counter-top. Cut with 2" cutter, place on greased baking sheet and sprinkle with sugar. Bake 8-10 minutes, or until lightly browned. *makes 4-5 dozen cookies*

Keeping promises

I totally forgot that I would be in school for the month of September when I decided to do the 30 posts in 30 days. I am slacking big time, but I am determined to get it done. Here are all the things I missed last week!

day 14 - a non-fictional book
I got nothing! Oh wait, does this count?

day 15 - my dream house
I have far too many different styles of houses that I like, so my dream would be to have a cape cod type home in Maine, a lake house on a beautiful lake, a beach house in Tahiti, a home in Colorado, etc, etc. I think you see where I'm going with this. =)

day 16 - a song{or three} that makes me cry
I got this one covered...Here's a song for every genre. This first one was played with a slide show of family pics at my brother's viewing. CANNOT listen to it anymore. 2nd & 3rd were on CD's in the truck on the way to the hospital, funeral home, funeral, pretty much everywhere we went that month.

day 17 - an art piece
Hmm, not really into art....

day 18 - my wedding
Oh where do I begin? My perfect day, with the perfect man! I'd show you the video, but didn't find out until we got back from our honeymoon that the stupid guy forgot to take the lens cover of the camera, so all I have is the audio{which didn't turn out that great either}. Good thing I didn't pay him! I still try and talk the fam into doing a "redo" just so I can have it recorded, for real this time. Wonder why I can't get any takers?....Maybe cause we all look seven years older!!
I do have some pictures I will share, but that will be a post in and of itself!

And now for this week, cause who am I kidding?!?! We all know if I don't do it now another week is gonna go by with nothin'.....

day 19 - a talent of mine
I've never really thought of myself as being talented. When I was a kid and asked if I could play any instruments, I always replied with, "I can play the radio, does that count?" I guess being a scarcastic, smart-a$$ is my talent. =) I guess if I am talented at anything it would be decorating. Though, that's probably more of a hobby. However people have told me many times that I decorate well and ask if I can help them. So I guess it could be a talent.

day 20 - a hobby of mine
!!!Why, Shopping of course!!!

Funny dream

So last night while sleeping I was having this dream that my leg was pinned under something and it was stuck. I kept asking my sister to help me but she refused and just laughed at me the whole time. Anyways, I finally got my leg free and I was so mad at her for laughing and not helping me that I hit her leg out of frustration. You're probably thinking that's not funny ^J^, but it was because I sat straight up in bed and hauled off and hit DH's leg. He woke up and said, "what are you doing?" I sorta woke up when I heard him say that and said, "oh nothing, sorry." I felt really bad for hitting him. I asked him this morning if it all happened or did I dream everything and he said, "No, you really did hit me and it was pretty hard too!" Poor DH! If I keep this up, he's gonna want to go back to 3rd shift. ;)


I promise I'll get back on my 30 posts in 30 days{probly this w/end}. I'm sure you are all on the edge of your seats waiting to hear/read my lists, NOT! Hahaha =)

Playing catch-up & 30 posts in 30 days: day 11-13

Hello! Long time, no talk/type to!!!

Day 11 - a recent photo of me


Day 12 - something I am OCD about
My toenails being painted...I will NOT wear open toe shoes if they are unpainted. And it is very rare for them to go more than a couple of hours without a new paint job. Crazy, I know, but that's always been a pet peeve of mine! I just think women's toenails should always be painted!!

Day 13 - a fictional book
Ok, I apologize in advance if I get fiction/non-fiction mixed up. Certainly, there could've been an easier way to discern between the two catagories....Jus.t Br.eat.he by S.usan Wigg.s .....A great read, if I may say so myself!


Now for quick catch-up before class starts.....

School is going a bit better. I think we have our first final tonight, so I'm freaking out a tad....After 6 years hubby has landed a day shift{!Whoo-Hoo!} It's definitely exciting, but takes some getting used to. I never knew what people meant by "you get used to sleeping by yourself", but boy howdy I did! And, now I can't sleep with the tv on anymore. But I also don't have to sleep with my finger on the trigger either! You win some, you lose some!! =)

Okay, class is about to start, so here goes week two....

30 posts in 30 days: days 9 & 10

As usaual, I'm running behind. Here's the 2 days I missed.

day 9 - picture I took

This is at Miramar Beach, FL where we went on vacation this year. - I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE this photo of J with the sunset and beach!!!!


day 10 - photo of me, taken over 10 years ago

This is me on Christmas morning. YES, I have a bow on my head! I think I was almost one{can't remember if this is my 1st or 2nd Christmas}. By the way, I still have that lamb that's on the back of the hideous-looking couch. Although, it's not nearly as white as it once was!!

TAB from homework

This has got to be quick, as I have mounds of homework for tonight.{and hubby thinks that's what I am doing} :( I think I'll go with quick bullets and hopefully this weekend go into more depth about everything that's going on in my neck of the woods. So, here goes.....

Monday

• Labor day
• good day, no worries

Tuesday

• horrific day
• my husband the hero

Wednesday

• class getting better
• playing major catch-up on homework
• sayonara 3rd shift

Thursday

• get to participate in role-play, finally
• actually happy to do role-play
• loads of homework{that I need to get to}

30 posts in 30 days: day 8

day 8 - a photo that makes me sad





Did I tell you we sold our camper? No work = no money to make payments, boo. What a sad, sad day that was. The only thing that softened the blow was we turned a small profit off of it. But, still sad, we love to camp. =(

Bad bad day

No sleep last night to begin with. That's the root of prob. Then add in operator error and miles and miles of computer problems( including everything under the sun). For kicks and added stress let's throw in tornado warnings and let see, that's maybe 10% of my issues today. 12 hours and counting on the computer and no end in sight. Desktop is being remote controlled by tech support for the second hour now.

I can't even tell you how many times vie cried today....This must be what it feels like to have a nervous breakdown.

Everything is going wrong & I'm completely screwed! I just want to cry. I hate computers.

30 posts in 30 days: day 7

Day 7 - a photo that makes me happy

This is my oldest nephew all geared up and ready to start football! The story behind this photo is, he put the helmet on and smiled for the camera. Then realized{on his own, by the way} that football players don't smile and quickly changed his facial expression. What a stud!

30 posts in 30 days: day 6

Day 6 - 20 of my fave things{in no particular order}



1. D.ove milk chocolate caramels - divine!
2. high heals
3. girlie clothes
4. my iPh.one
5. both of my wedding rings
6. my big, red truck!
7. my house
8. this most delish recipe!
9. electricity
10. technology
11. my boat
12. Christmas decorations!
13. purses/wallets, but more-so purses
14. rain
15. blue skies
16. white puffy clouds
17. hot baths/showers
18. swimming pools!
19. pedicures
20. road trips!

30 posts in 30 days: day 5

day 5 - my favorite quote

It use to be:
"That which doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger."

overlapped for a short time, by:
"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."

but now, {thanks to Dot} it's:
"It's hard to wait around for something that you know might never happen, but it's even harder to give up when you know it's everything you've ever wanted."

Forget 'Busy Bee' it's busy me!

I hardly have any me-time and I'm not even working, yet. :( My classes start on Tuesday and I've been running around like a crazy person with her head unattached trying to get things in order. I feel like I spend all day on the computer and get nothing done. And I'm not talking about wasting the day away on Fb or Dr Go.ogl.e or anything fun{something I use to do quite often}. No, no I'm actually working, or trying to work. I have all sorts of tests to run on my computer to make sure it meets their rigorous standards, and it is just so exhausting. Part of the problem I'm sure is because the computer is, well, not part of the ancient ruins, but I'd say it's pretty darn close! Although, I don't feel like I can complain, seeing as J's sister gave it to us and in-turn saved us a few hundred buck-a-roo's by not having to buy a brand, spankin', new one when we don't have any extra cash{since, I'm not working}.

I've tried to stay current on my blog reading, but I am failing miserably in the commenting department. The only reason I've made it to day 4 of the "30 posts in 30 days" is cause I pre-typed and scheduled them a few days ago. However, now I think I'm up to the more difficult posts and I'll be falling behind at a rapid speed, especially come Tuesday. Oofta may!

Luckily, my class is only M-F{12:30-4:30pm YUCK} and this week only 4 days thanks to good ol' Labor Day! I've never been a fan a college, so I guess that's why I'm a little nervous about starting class. I am just oh so thankful it's a virtual class instead of the real deal. Otherwise, the thought of me having to introduce myself with hundreds of eyeballs staring back at me would totally freak me out. Eek! I'm somewhat of a shy person, at least until you get to know me, then, good luck on getting me to shut up! =)

30 posts in 30 days: day 4

Day 4 - my favorite book

Here it is.....








This is the book that made me start reading books{as an adult, anyway}. I always enjoyed JG movies but his books are so much better. And this one is the best!

30 posts in 30 days: day 3

Day 3 - my favorite tv show



Hmm, I am in love with

AND

CT Results

Nurse T calls today{after I called for results, typical}. She says the CT shows "density around my urethra"{whatever that is}. Dr M apparently doesn't know what it is either and wants me to see an urologist. It just so happens, that I have a urologist{from when I had frequent & severe UTI's} so I called him and scheduled an appointment for September 20th. By the time that appt rolls around I will have been having abdominal pain for 8 weeks.....Geez, I sure do love dr's, NOT!

30 posts in 30 days: day 2

Day 2 - my favorite movie

Again, just like the songs, I have too many favorites to single only one out. J and I LOOOVVE movies! At last count we had close to 200 dvd/vhs's That being said, one of me fave's is .Because.I.Said.So. It has all the great qualities of a movie, I laugh, I cry, I laugh again!! And, the song playing when the movie starts is like a theme song for my life. In case you're not familiar with the song I'm referring to it's, .Days.Like.This. by V.an.Mor.riso.n.

Oh, and another fave is .The.Family.Stone. I laugh, I cry, and I can relate to it....in my own weird little way! :p

I could go on and on, but I digress. I'm sure you have better things to do than read about my ho-hum life of watching movies! ;)

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