different kinda 5 year plan

I can't believe I'd ever even ponder the thought of moving away, and live somewhere so completely opposite than what I'm use to. But hey, life happens! What am I talking about, you ask? Well, lately J and I have been considering a different kinda life. We watch shows like Rul.esof.Eng.agem.ent and Fri.en.ds etc.. and think how nice it would be to live in a big city condo where everything you need is within a half mile from where you are and you never buy more than 2 days of groceries, cause that's all you can carry. Ha!

It just so happens, that J's work has locations in San Fran, Seattle{though, that's not really big-city} and Chicago. So, we've been looking online at downtown condos in Chicago and I gotta say, I think I could do it! Sure, it would be major culture shock, but maybe not. I mean, I did use to live in South Africa.

We've decided to put condo-living on our five year plan! I would miss my parents of course{never lived more than 30 mins away from them}, then again, they did say when my dad retires they would probly move....If we were to make such a move, J would be the first person in his entire fam to ever move out of state. And, his fam is huge, so that says a lot!! Yet, he's still on board. Heck, it's all he talks about. I think he would leave tomorrow, if there were a job opening!

So, whatya think? Could ya'll see this small-town, southern, country girl in a big-city, downtown condo?!? ......I think I can{{{she whispered!}}}


**This just in - Oh my, hubby just called a realtor in Chicago. We might have to bump this up to a five month plan!**

Bent, but not broken....

I may never get to touch my dreams...Know what it feels like to be pregnant or bring our baby home from the hospital. But, what I do know is that, I'm not going down without a fight! I will fight with all I have to make our dream, our reality.

Infertility may bend me but I cannot allow it to break me. I want a baby. I want to start a family, but I can't imagine a life where I trade my husband for a child. Our marriage comes first. I've always said that, and six years after TTC I still believe that's true! Infertility may define us, but it will not defeat us!

I did it!

I got on this bike with J and rode around our neighborhood…for maybe a 5 minute ride. But the point is, I got on the momo{that's what my nephew called them since he couldn't say motorcycle} and went for a ride!

I do miss riding around on one with J but it's so hard NOT to think "worst case scenario" after what happened to my brother.

We only had the bike for a couple of weeks. We were selling a Yukon and took the momo as trade instead. But we have since sold the bike.

J loves motorcycles and because I love him I am trying really hard to deal with the loss of my brother, but not let my loss control what makes us happy.… And we really did have fun cruising around on our old momo!

Now if/when we do get another, there's a good chance my mom will dis-own us, but that's a whole other post….…

Calling all blog savvy pro's & anyone else who can help

It's been requested{I won't name names{MISTY} =)} that I update my money ticker over on our IVF blog. The obstacle I'm having difficulty with is I don't know jack about adding widgets to my blog!! There, I said it, I am not as computer savvy as you may have thought. ;) The real deal is a few people have donated via check or cash{which is perfectly acceptable} however, those donations come to me and then I deposit into our bank account and they are not visable on the ticker. Only the donations made through the c.hip.in ticker show up on said ticker. I added a simple payp.al donate button and I have been looking for a money counter/tracker widget doohickie that I can manually add amounts to after receiving donations whether it be cash, check, or charge{then I could remove the c.hip.in one from my blog}.....I have not found any such thing, nor do I know if something like that even exists. I'd create my own widget doohickie, but that brings me back to square one of not knowing jack about doing that sort of thing!!!

Any help, suggestions or feedback would be

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another loss

Our kitty died last night. I don't believe in signs, but if I did, I would say the loss of two pets in less than two weeks is NOT good. I guess he was sick from the shelter and since he was too young to get his shots, he probably caught something there.... It saddens me and I can't help but wonder, why does death keep happening around me? I told DH last night, "No wonder God won't let us get PG, we can't even keep our pets alive." But, I know that's not the reason we are not PG, I was, I still am sad about it and just had a mild outburst, I guess.

Just when we had narrowed down his name to Winston, Ajax, or Clyde.....

the usual

So it's been awhile since I've had a regular kinda post. Thanks for the many comments about my puppy. I still miss her dearly, but I'm sure I always will. Ok, new subject before I go all emotional on you......

The kitten is doing good...he had flees really bad when I brought him home, but since he's so young, I can't use the flee powder/shampoo on him. I did however give him a bath with reg shampoo and he let me trim his claws too....He's not your average kitten. Hopefully he will continue to let me clip his nails so he can be an inside/outside cat and not ruin our leather couches. He's still nameless though. I told DH he was to name him since he always gave me a hard time about naming our pup Izzy. Thanks for the suggestions, I also like the name Oliver(I think Julie said that one) but DH can't decide. I told him since he wants a Harl.ey.Davi.dso.n so bad he should name him Harley and then he can finally own a Harley....Hahaha! Don't think that's quite what DH had in mind when he said he wanted a Harley. Of course, my nephew wants us to name him McCoy, after some UT football player that has now gone pro. Such a dilema!!

Work is going better. Though it's still too early to tell if I am going to fully enjoy it. Dh was talking to his brother the other day and i could tell his brother had asked if I was starting to like it yet?{his brother's wife does the same sorta work} anyways, Dh says, "yeah she likes it." I quickly had him change his statement to, "it's too soon to tell." Hahahaha!!! I do like it, but it's still so frusterating, cause it seems we were trained for all the "easy" calls that rarely happen. And then you get a caller like I did on my first day, that makes you want to scream at them for being so stupid.....This lady calls in and says her wallet was stolen and she is afraid the thief is going to log on and open an account posing as her. I wanted to ask her what kinda moron was she?!?! Cause if i was a thief the last thing I would do with that wallet is create an online acct, for a pharmacy no less. Maybe if it was an acct for a CC, but not a pharm.....Geez, what an idiot?!?!? Anyhoo, DH has already said, I have to at least make $2000{that's what we have vested} before I can quit. I replied with, Yay, a goal to aim for! But really, I think I'll stick around. Afterall, it is kinda nice to choose my own hours and really nice to work just a couple hours a day!!

Ok, I better go get some housework done....TaTa for now! =)

The new guy

-He is by no means a replacement pet-

After J found that snake in the house we decided we were going to adopt a cat. I went and picked him up today....had no clue that they adopted them out so young...he is only 3 weeks old. I haven't come up with a name yet, so if you have any ideas be sure and leave it in the comments.

Triggs

This morning at 7:20 we hear someone knocking on our door then ringing the doorbell. It's J's day off so we were gonna sleep in. I looked out the window and saw my neighbors car in our driveway. I threw some clothes on and went and answered the door. She apologized for waking me up and then said that my dog got her head stuck in their fence and her dogs attacked my dog. Her husband went out there and my dog had lost an ear, but then ran into the woods behind their house.

I couldn't sleep knowing she was hurt so I got dressed and went looking for her. I called her but never found her or even heard her cry or anything. J got up a little later and we both went and looked in the woods for her, then we got in the truck and drove around the neighborhood looking for her. Still nothing.

When we got home I looked on our back porch just in case she came home and she was there but it was bad, so bad. She was way worse than what the neighbor had said. I don't know if she(the neighbor) didn't see her(my dog) or if she was just candy coating the situation.

I almost threw up when i saw the severity of her injury. I'll spare you the horrific details but she had clearly lost a lot of blood and was suffering, a lot. It was awful. J said we had to put her down and I lost it. He told me to go in the house while he....you know. I know it was the only option, but no one should ever have to do that to their own dog.

What's weird is we are not those kinda pet people that think of them as their kids or furbabbies or whatnot. But we loved our dog and she was such a good dog. It def feels like we lost a loved one today. ;( I keep expecting her to run around the corner when I go outside. When I cooked dinner this evening I kept looking out the back door for her. She always use to sit there and watch me. I finally had to close the blinds.... It breaks my heart to know she's gone, but we couldn't bare to watch her suffer like that.

Before you go cussing my neighbors, J said when he looked closer it didn't look like an attack. I guess we'll never really know. I just hope she's ok in doggie heaven and that she knew how much we loved her and how much she's missed.

R.I.P. Izzy girl....

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~Mucho Gracias~

Thank you Sherry for this award!! Though I must say, I feel pretty bad about accepting this after being MIA most of last month. But mucho thanks for giving it to me anyways!

El rules....

•thank and link back to the person nice enough to give you the award

•share seven things about yourself

•pass the award along to seven other bloggers who you think are fabulous

•contact the bloggers you chose and let them know about the award


Seven things about me:

1.) I'm about to make veggie pizza for the first time ever....It's my aunt's recipe and it's oh so tasty!
2.) hubs bought me a new computer w/a wide screen monitor and it's fantabulous!!
3.) my new ultimate-relaxation therapy is this
4.) I am over-whelmed with my new job but I think{hope} it will be good, once I get the hang of things
5.) I have a sugar addiction
6.) I have the best group of online friends a girl can have
7.) I want to be a mom{I know you already know that about me, but I can't think of anything else. and I really really want to be a mom. ;)}

And last, but certainly not least, my nominations are for: anyone reading this post{I swore I wasn't going to cop out, but I'm sure by now everyone has been nom'd. so if you haven't already been nom'd than you are now, by me!}

another quickie

Hello!

It feels like forever since I last blogged. I am doing good just trying to get in the swing of this new work schedule. So far today, I have worked 3 half-hour shifts....a whopping hour and a half all spread out through out the morning. I have to work again tonight from 7pm - 7:30pm. I'm hoping next weeks hours are a little more together so I can have a life outside of work.

I want to say a HUGE THANKS to E and the other ladies in the "Pound down Challenge"!!!! You have really blessed my heart with your generousity towards our IVF fund. When I told J about it he said, "that was very sweet of you." I can't thank you enough E!!!! ;) Thanks so very much!!

There is no way I am going to be able to catch up on everyone for the last few weeks, so please leave me a comment and let me know what's new. Did I miss anything?? Please, please tell me, I hate being out of the loop. I hope everyone is doing well! I'm gonna go try and relax a little before I have to cook dinner and log back in for my last shift. Talk to you ladies soon!!

{{Hearts & Hugs}}