Monday, April 18, 2011

If I didn't know any better....

If I didn't know any better, I might get delusional and start to think "what if"?!? I am now 6 days late. The last three mornings I was for sure I had started when I woke up, went to the RR, had tampon in hand and nothing. My lower back started hurting two days ago{sure fire sign I'm about to start, like that day or next} still nothing, my boobs feel like sandbags, well not all the time, but last night they felt swollen. And, just typing all this makes me want to cry. Oh yeah, I have been crying over the simplest things lately. I sound like one of those cRaZy, fertiles, I know. BUT, I refuse to be that ignorant! I know my body and it's just screwing with me. I've gone through too much over the last eight years to let myself get caught up in all this craziness. I WILL through caution to the wind and I WILL NOT get my hopes up this time!

6 comments:

  1. Pee on a stick to kill that wondering.

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  2. When you mentioned "sandbags", all I could think of was the "40 Yr. Old Virgin" movie ...lol

    Anywho...I agree with Jenn.

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  3. Test!! Oh J. I'm hoping beyond hope that your body isn't just screwing with you.

    Not to plant false hope, but before I got my BFP with Boo, I was wearing pads, I was so convinced AF was going to start at any second. I'm talking cramps, lower back ache, leg ache, headache. All of it.

    ((((HUGS)))))

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  4. TEST TEST TEST! 6 days is late enough to test, lady, get on it!

    Keeping my fingers crossed for you :)

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I prefer you to make mistakes in kindness than work miracles in unkindness. ~ Mother Teresa & me