still here

I know I haven't been around much lately, but I wanted to pop in and say a heartfelt thanks for all the comments on my last post. I *heart* you ladies more than you will ever know!!

I'm still somewhat depressed and all, but I think it's getting better. I hope it is anyways. The weather is warming up and that always seems to help me.. I think I'm just going through so much right now in my personal life that it's manifesting itself into a state of depression.
To name just a few things...My parents and aunts are having an estate sell this weekend of all my Mamaw's personal items, furniture, clothes, etc. It's weird being at her house and not seeing her face. I miss her so much already.
Another thing going on is my SIL{the one married to my brother that passed away} well, she's been seeing this guy for awhile and last week he proposed so now she's engaged. I truly am happy for her but at the same time it's weird seeing her with someone other than my brother. But, she deserves to be happy after what she went through and new guy seems to be really nice, treats her well and has gone above & beyond accepting all of my family as a part of his new family. So I guess that's all I can ask for, right?
Last but certainly not least - these kidney stones just might be the death of me. AND I don't even think I've made it to the worst part. I was supposed to have my dye/scope test last week, but it was cancelled cause they thought the weather was going to be bad like the week before...and of course the weather was fine. Well, my appointment is tomorrow, finally. Thank goodness, I am so tired. At night I just lie in bed in pain and can't sleep. the pain has worsened over the last couple of weeks and so now it hurts from right under my right ribcage all the way down the right side of my abdomen, right side of my lower back down my butt and the back of my thigh. I hope my doc can get the stones out without too much more pain. Last week when they cancelled my appt I asked them to call me in pain meds, which they did however the first night I took one and it did nothing. And I'm talking 500mg of Vic.od.en so the next night I took two and woke up with what can only be described as a 'medicine hangover'. That headache lasted for two days and was awful. I haven't taken any more vico since....It hurts to sit, it hurts to stand, to walk, to lay down. It hurts when I sleep and when I'm awake, it hurts to cough and laugh and it even hurts to type! geez, I sound like a dr.sue.ss, storybook gone bad.

Well, you're caught up on all things "me".....boring as it may be, that's my life right now. Time to go eat everything in sight before midnight{can't eat for twelve hours before test}. Hope the hubs gets home soon from work, but then again I do like that he's getting some sweet overtime. Just feel bad that he's gonna have to get up so early on his day off to take me to hospital. I definitely snagged me an awesome hubs, he's so great to me!