In the swing of it. As you may or may not have noticed, I've been on a
commenting hiatus lately. After my last, yet another failed C, I
needed to take a little break. I started blogging after a couple of
days, and tried to keep up with all the blogs, but rarely commented.
I don't know what's happening with me right now, much less able to
explain things. I feel like......I dunno what I feel like. Actually, I
do. I feel like my TTC days might be behind me. And that scares the
living hell out of me! It has become crystal clear over the last few
weeks that we may not be able to afford to do IVF ever again(even with
the discounted price my RE offered me(I'll talk more about that in tomorrow's post). And, let's face it our chances of getting PG naturally are close to one in a million!
So with that in mind, I have been trying to figure out what to do with
my life. College was never for me, I went for a couple of semesters
but never found anything that held my interest like motherhood.
I have to figure something out cause if I sit here at home, all day,
everyday I'm going to start to shut down emotionally. I've been there
before and it's no place for anyone to be.
I understand EXACTLY how you are feeling. I wish we lived closer to each other.
ReplyDeleteI am tring to "find my purpose" in life also. I called on some volunteer projects, have you thought of doing some kind of volunteer work , it may help.
(((HUGS)))
(Hugs)
ReplyDeleteI feel I am getting closer to those feelings.
Is there a hobby you have that you could dive into and make money with? You're very crafty; why not open up a booth at a market with your stuff?
I'm so sorry for how you are feeling. I hope that you don't have to put the dream of having children behind you.
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