peanut butter & pickles

Everything lined up perfectly in January, I knew exactly when I O'd and we did the deed at all the right times. Then February shows, and I have a short and oh so light C. Which made me kinda think, "what if"? I put those thoughts behind me and moved forward. I couldn't bare to see another negative HPT. About a week or so later I got really sick, I never actually threw up, but I did run in there a few times thinking I was going to be sick. I hardly ate anything for a week. The very thought, sight, smell and taste of food made my stomach hurt. Needless to say I lost 10 lbs. that week. (Don't worry I think I already gained it all back.) After the light C and being sick I decided to POAS, however it was yet another BFN. ;(

Well, I slowly started feeling better and I feel great now, just a little tired. It is now CD24 and I'm not feeling any symptoms of AF. I am however wanting to try a peanut butter & pickle sandwich. It may sound gross to you, but I think it will be good. Mmm.....tasty! I will let you know if it was a good idea or not. I don't know what to think of my cycles. I am definitely confused by these mixed signals that my brain is throwing at me. It is so frustrating to try and decifer each and every little symptom.

I just want to be pregnant and have healthy children. Is that really too much to ask? I'm tired of waiting and watching everyone else get pregnant with their 1st, 2nd, 3rd etc. When is it going to be mine & DH's turn to start our family?