Tuesday, October 25, 2011

What I didn't know...

They never tell you key things regarding m/c's. I have friends and family members who have had a m/c before and yet the only thing people ever say is "cramps & bleeding". Those are the only two things I have ever associated a m/c with. But, over the last week I've figured a few things out regarding what's going on with my body. 
First of all let me say we decided against a D&C and we are waiting for it to happen naturally. Which, might be part of the reason my symptoms are what they are, but regardless. They never tell you that you still feel pregnant. What I mean is you still have all the pregnancy symptoms, including, crying at the drop of a hat, indigestion & heartburn, extreme bloated feeling so much so that most of my clothes don't fit. Pretty much I wear boxers or pj bottoms unless I have to leave the house and then I put on what used to be my loosest pair of jeans and I can barely button them. Another thing is I want junk food all the time. Last night I was so hungry but the only things that sounded good to me was greasy pizza, chilly-cheese dog or nachos. Did I mention it was 1am and we don't live in a city that has take-out or delivery all night long. I wound up eating broccoli in cheese sauce and feeling sick after. Smells still bother me and foods don't taste like they used to. And, lets not forget the incredibly sore boobs that I am experiencing. I'm not kidding, they hurt like you wouldn't believe. Unfortunately, my oldest nephew is right at boob level and every time he hugged me I thought I was going to pass out from the pain. It's so bad that every time I roll over in bed I wake up cause they hurt so much.  I think the problem is that my brain and uterus are not currently speaking to each other. Most likely because my brain is pissed the hell off that my body is no longer PG. Or maybe that's just me. In any event all of these PG symptoms are starting to take a toll on me emotionally.  It has been eight days since we found out we are no longer PG and yet my body still isn't ready to start the m/c. I've had an achy discomfort feeling in my lower back, hip & buttock region(all on the right side only) but no bleeding or cramps as of yet. We are gonna give it another week and if I still haven't started bleeding we will go see my RE again and I think he will do another scan and we can re-evaluate and see if we want to continue waiting for it to happen naturally or see if we want to go ahead and schedule a D&C. We wanted to let it go naturally, but I'm not sure how much more I can take. When every waking moment I have to remind myself I'm no longer PG. It would be one thing if all these symptoms was going to lead us to our take-home baby, but it's not. And, it's only getting harder with each passing day. 

3 comments:

  1. I don't really know what to say. I know nothing can make this better for you right now. I just want you to know I'm still thinking about you.

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  2. ((Hugs)) I'm still holding out hope for the miracle that it was too early. There I said it, I'm sorry if that is bad, but I want this so bad for you and I'm hoping it was just too early to see anything! Lots of love and hugs with you. ~Tanya

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  3. Are they taking your HCG levels? Mine would go up and down up and down and that would reak havok on my hormones. I can tell you that I passed an empty sac @ 10 weeks and it took me 2 days of excruciating pain. I was writhing in my bed, literally. The second one I had a D&C at 8 weeks and at first I didn't want to do it but honestly afterwards I was glad I did. It was so much easier. No pain..not much bleeding. I felt like I got back to myself much faster. But with all surgeries there are risks. I wonder why they aren't giving you methergine?? they gave that to me with the first to help my uterus contract.

    big hugs. I know how tough this can be. Try to take it easy.

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