Why do I even try?

I tried talking to my mom the other day about IF. I don't know why I even bother "trying" to talk to her about this, It just makes me so sick feeling. I thought out of all people your mom is someone you can talk to about anything. Well I guess not my mom. I know they(her & my dad) were less than thrilled when we did IVF, but c'mon, it's my own mom....Why won't she talk to me about this? My sister had once told me that mom had told her she didn't like bringing it up with me cause she doesn't want to upset me, but if I bring it up then she will talk to me. That's a LOAD OF CRAP, and I so didn't want to say crap! Since my sister told me that(over a year ago) I have tried several times to bring up the topic. It doesn't matter what I say about it, she always changes the subject. It infuriates me and makes me feel alone. I need my mom to talk to and she clearly wants no part of it. *sigh* My most recent "try" was this last week when I was pulling weeds, I called my mom and was just chatting and without even thinking I brought up how it would be nice if insurance companies had to pay for IF treatment. To which she replies bluntly, that if anything they are going to start covering less. So I say, "a girl can dream. I just want a baby and it saddens me to think that there is no way we can come up with $9000 by the end of the year to do the reduced-price IVF that our RE offered us. He has only ever offered this kinda thing to 2 other people and we won't be able to do it." ......Wanna know what mom said? She says and I quote, "huh, I'm getting a new phone this week, a dr.oi.d. can't wait til it arrives, maybe you can help me figure it out." ....Is she FREAKIN' kidding me?!? That's all she can muster up to say to me, is huh? I don't get it. I don't get her. I'm getting an upset stomach just thinking about it.

If they really are against all this IVF I wish they would just come out and say, We don't want to talk about it, instead of picking and choosing what parts they want to talk about. GRR, I swear I could breath fire right now, I'm so mad! (I doubt this post is even going to be understandable since I can't even think straight right now, much less type.) Then they wonder why I don't come around very often, or when I do it's for a short amount of time. Seriously?