Meltdown

As it turns out, my STUPID work insurance does not cover any IF treatment. I guess the HR people have no clue what they were talking about when they told me it was Definitely Covered. So, yes I had my huge meltdown last week when I found out, which just so happened to be the day my sister gave birth to baby #2. Needless, to say I was NOT in a good mood. I am only now able to talk about it without crying. Not only does it not cover anything, but now my copay is $30 more than what it used to be. It hit me so hard because I was thinking I would get to do IVF this month and now thats completely out of the question. In fact, I don't know if we will be able to even do it this year. The little money we have left from selling the house is being saved for a down payment when we buy our next house. And, J said we can't afford to do IVF until we pay off the last one, which has a balance of about $10,000. So, I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't even know what to say about it. I just don't know.