UPDATE-(ish)

Well, I don't know if this is really considered an update. Things haven't really gone anywhere around here, unless you consider moving backwards an update............Argh! I hope you know what I mean, cause I can't type what I'm trying to say......Ugh, its happening again!

I'm gonna try to tell you whats been rolling around in my head the last couple of weeks. Bear with me, here goes nothing........

Today is CD7. I was 4-5 days late,(I choose not to remember) it was really light and only lasted a couple of days. This cycle is all backwords with the pms symptoms. I don't know if it has anything to do with being a few days late, but I had NO symptoms before I started. My lower back didnt hurt, I wasn't "witchy", my boobs didn't hurt, AND, I didn't even want chocolate!?!?

We put an offer in on a house last week. Apparently, we were the ONLY people who had looked at it, then all of a sudden we were in a bidding war for the house......long story short, someone out-bid us so we did not get it. I wasn't really bummed about losing the house, but rather I was so close to having my own place, and then a door slammed in my face!

My job is still up in the air.......I am being laid off at the end of August, but they say if they have any openings they will fill it internally. I guess thats good, but there are 5 of us and I've only heard of 3 possible positions.....so who knows. They have asked me about my work history and if I would be interested in some of the openings, but they have also asked 2 other girls too. *sigh*

We found another house yesterday, only to find out (as we are walking in the front door) that "this house already has a contract on it." Fine, I'm use to having back-up plans.......so we go see our 2nd choice. It was nice, but we were not a hundred percent and decided to look at the one across the street. Keep in mind they are built by the same builder..........Well the house across the street does not have carpet installed yet and there was quite a few cracks in the foundation. Needless to say, we are now leary of that builder and not going to purchase one of his homes.

All these things and other stuff that I am not even going to mention because this has gotten too long have been welling up in me....I have fought back the tears ALL DAY. I get home(to mamaw's) and she asks me what I think about the quilt she is making me.................Remember I told you that she was going to make me baby quilts.................Well, I turn around to look and its a John. D.eer. baby boy quilt. I almost lost it. I really don't know how I held it all in. The only thing I do know, is when I go to bed, I just might cry myself to sleep.

If your still reading this, thanks! I just needed to get this out......